Lawrence, who is having a baby with her husband Cooke Maroney, will let her return to the screen with Adam McKay’s comedy “Don’t Look Up.”
The 31-year-old star said in an interview with Vanity Fair: “I’m too nervous…I haven’t spoken to the world for a long time. Now coming back, when I add all these new accessories I obviously want to protect life.”
The interview involved movies where Lawrence worked before she took a step back from the spotlight, which included “Passenger”, “Mom!” “Red Sparrow” and “Black Phoenix.”
“I didn’t play the qualities I deserved,” she said. “I just think everyone is tired of me. I am tired of me.”
Lawrence said that she began to think she could not do anything right.
“If I walk the red carpet, I will ask,’Why doesn’t she run?’…I think I have been likable for most of my life,” she said.
Now Lawrence is pregnant, and although she refuses to talk about her feelings about becoming a mother, she does share her thoughts on protecting her children.
“Every instinct of my body wants to protect their privacy as much as possible for the rest of their lives. I don’t want anyone to be welcomed in their existence. And I think it just never includes them and starts my work. Part of it,” she said.
“Anyone can see my naked body at any time of the day without my consent,” she said. “Someone in France just published them. My trauma will always be there.”
She also recounted her experience in 2017, when a small private jet she was travelling in had to make an emergency landing after both engines failed.
“Flying is terrible, I have to do it all the time,” she said, explaining how she started to leave “little psychological voice mails” to her family when the plane rushed to the ground.
“Look, Leo has brought more box office than me. I feel very lucky and satisfied with my transaction. But in other cases, what I have seen-I believe other women at work have also seen– Is it very uncomfortable to ask about equal pay for equal work,” she said. “If you do question something that seems unequal, you will be told that it is not a gender difference, but they can’t tell you what it is.”
The movie will air on Netflix next month, and CNN has contacted the streaming service for comments.
Read the full cover story “Happy New Year” by Karen Valby in the December issue of Vanity Fair and VanityFair.com.